what is that buzzing?!
Do you get those crazy questions or thoughts that won’t let you go? They just keep rolling around in your mind - hitting you when you least expect it or hounding you when all you want to do is “veg-out?” Those mosquitoes on the mind just keep buzzing and buzzing in a threatening kind of way. I have had one of those suckers poking about my mind and heart the past couple of days - don’t know where it came from or when it will leave cause the question gets too close to “what it’s all about.” It is a question that I think right now I can’t answer the way I “should.” The answer is too revealing and disappointing.
I wish I could just smack this mosquito and put an end to this buzzing in my head.
The question:
Am I living from a posture or position of willfulness or willingness?
[Willfulness being a posture of stiff-armed distance that projects, “I am in control here;” and willingness is the position of the Gethsemane prayer, “not my will, but Thine be done.”]
Those pesky mosquitos often turn into songs for me.
But that particular question is a good one. Now I wonder if I’ll be able to get it out of MY head.